Life is sometimes cruel

Being emo for the last several hours and it is still lasting.. Not getting better,instead it's worsen..

Yeahh.. My lifetime is equal to sadness,ironic > happiness,I think so.. In general,every happy moment I had is just for a while and sadness conquers much of it..

I tweeted I prefer to die rather than hearing a sad news a few hours ago.. Yes this is true.. Absolutely true.. Well,I actually wanted to tweet "can someone just shoot me right on the head because I hate to stay alive.."

Yeah this is part of life but some sort of things is really unacceptable.. I really wish I could somebody else who live in an appropriate of life,where it should be..

Well I shouldn't say what was happening in here because I can't tell you the most sensitive matters which is too personal..

I wish I would never wake up from my sleep later because I don't want to hear sad news anymore..

Few more days to the new semester

I'll be back~ *2pm Mode* Wow! seems that I am highly spirited to make myself return to the study,NOT! Ohh Holiday I didn't spend u wisely because most of my holidays filled with sleeping :P

How am I gonna adapt this situation again because most of the time I used to be at home with my fellow cuzzies.. Hmm~ Hope I will be able to adapt well especially in the hostel during the upcoming fasting month..

What important is that I have to do well in this semester because I don't wanna see "F" anymore and also avoid getting a P if possible..

YOU CAN DO IT HAFIZHZUL!



still I have no mood to study :P

HY Family Forever :))

Hello! it has been how many months I had not blogging.. Well, the word "blogging" I've just seen just now on my cousin's tweet reminds me of it plus I've got something to post regarding the title :)

Let me say something about the HY family, this is the name of the group of our family.. This name came out of Alai Nisydah's or Nur Aleeya's mouth when we talk about renaming our group.. I don't remember what is the previous name of the group is.. Hehehe.. But I think this one is much nicer and modern a bit :p Well HY is is the acronyms of my grandparents name..

To the point:

Last night we had a family outing at Tutong's Public School :pp Why were we there? Ada bunga api bahh.. Hehe.. Uncle Ijul picked the place and yeah it was a safe&great spot for us to watch the fireworks from..

Punya lah banyak lawak semalam.. Ada2 saja bah.. Confirm inda buleh betamu :D Especially uncle Ijul,best lawak slumber nya.. Hehehe..

There's nothing more to say.. Just hoping there will be another family outing lagiii :))))

Here's some of the pic.. Enjoy

For more pictures, click here

New Life,But Nothing is new..

Wow~ it has been a month I haven't updated my blog.. And simultaneously it has been a month for me being a UBD-ian..

Though it has been a month being a UBD-ian but I feel that there's nothing new things happened.. I mean there's no change.. I still act as a child,no commitment in doing my work;I finished my work at the very last minute and I have no fear in failing in my test.. Hmm~ I think I should changed a bit.. But it needs a lot of time for me.. :\

During my night before having a math's test,I had never finished single question as a practice.. Because I had my attention on "lepak2" with my friends rather than revising.. And the next day,I regret..The question was quite easy to answer but I never mananaged to answer some of the questions.. Hee~

That's my life nowadays

New Life,New Target...... Everything is going to be new~

It has been a week and a day in ubd and yeah it is fun to be one of the ubd-ians yet tiring.. Well~ since this is the first week,the level of tiredness aren't that great but soon the level will keep keep on increasing again and again due to assignments especially MIB;that's why I hate MIB.. Hehe..

At the same time,I manage to adapt the way of hostelite's life.. At first I thought the surrounding is kind of bored and silence.. But~ it goes the opposite way.. I can find many new friends here.. That is the advantage of being one of the hostelite :) But the feeling of missing my parents,grandparents and my relatives never ends..

I have nothing much to say though and

Good Bye~

Happy Belated Birthday To Me :)

Yeah,I'm 19 already.. Thanks god for the blessings.. But my birthday party didn't progress as I wanted.. :'( Too many bad things happened..

Yeah,I think this is my worst birthday party ever.. Don't wanna say what happened during my birthday party as I don't want to keep it in my mind anymore.. :'(

How worst my day was?

Being too emo nowadays.. not that "emo" but apa nya urang Brunei-emosi.. Ahhh fuckk off!! What is happening to me? I can't understand myself for some time..

Is it because of too much thinking? I've been thinking too much about uncesssary things for the week.. This usually happens before I go asleep.. And I suffered insommnia because of this.. Ahh!! I'm freaked out!!

I had searched through the internet of ways to cure this insomnia.. It only works for some time but not everyday..

No matter what,I have to solve this thing immediately before it is worsen..

4 days to go

We would like to inform that you have FITNESS TEST:
On : 3rd April 2010 (Sat) 8am
At : UBD Sports Complex
You are required to come with proper attire such as long pants, T-shirt (long sleeve for ladies) and sport shoes.
Please bring along your I.C, Badminton Racket and Small Towel.

The message was received on 24th March,2009.. Pheww,it was shocking.. I haven't attended fitness test before n I'm not prepared yet.. Wish me luck ;)

Frustrated but yet Satisfying

Results were already out.. The first thing came into my mind was what should I do next? I should plan carefully.. Hmmm -_-"

I'm glad that I passed the A level examination but~ there's a but.. hahaha apakannn~ OkOk lets get serious.. I felt frustrated about my grades but I'm satisfied.. Because I didn't expect that I pass but too bad no UK for me.. hahaha..

Let it be~ Because I know it's not my luck.. Hmm~ >.< But,I still blamed myself for it.. haha..

It wasn't one of my plan to get the scholarship,but when I saw my friends who are eligible for it,I felt down and almost crying.. haha.. damn it.. But congrates to all of my 18 mates.. Gd luck to all of u and enjoy ur life in UK.. :'(

Enough of it.. hehe.. But I'm satisfied with my result and thanks to god..

Results OMG!!

Time passes really quick.. I just realized it's already mid-january..

OMG OMG!! RESULTS!! RESULTS!!

The date where result is going to be released is getting nearer.. My hearts beats faster than usual and it will continues to beat much faster as it reach end of January(the expectation date).

What should I do if I pass or not? And the worst thing is what happened if I failed badly in the exam? How should I answer my parents if they are mad at me?

Damn it!! It's me who should be blamed if I failed.. me,Myself!! I didn't prepare much before the exam.. Yes!! I did prepare but its not for exam,it's for the holiday.. WOHOO!! Holiday~

And the holiday is going to end.. I regret it.. :'(

OMG,pls help me..

Holiday.....

The moment that I had waited has come.. Yeayy!! I'll be relaxing for 2 mnths.. But the feeling of missing the school time will never ends.. Friends,teachers&every great moments that we had shared and experienced together will surely be missed by everyone in the school.. Oooo God thanks for blessing of our lifes..

I'm wondering how's everyone? hee~

My holiday is just the same as my school-days,just that there's no school.. lol..
Staying out till dawn with my fellow cuzzies,then rises up late.. Hahaha It has been my daily routine right now..

Ok Everyone,I have to stop writting now as I don't have other things in my mind right now.. hehe.. Bye..



HAAPPPPYYYY HOOOOLIIIIDAYYY!!!!!

I Miss U..

I was staying at home.. Bored... Can't describe how I miss u..

OMG,pls help me.. I'll be suffering more if this continues..

Another new day started.. I woke up late...

I didn't go to school n again n again this makes me suffering more..

Boredom never ends,so do the feeling of missing u..

Oh Rain,come again another day... N better to be at nite.. Because I miss u... Football.. lol

A meaningless life

Hey there.. I'm here again to update my.... Hmmm,should I say "boring" page or anything related with the word "boring"..

Yeah,regarding the title of my post.. I've got something to share with but depends,you wanna read it or not.. Hehe.. Ok lets go straight to the point..

"I feel that I'm a diffrent from the others where I can't say that I'm not normal but I feel that I'm not normal.. Hee.. I can't really understand myself.. Let me explain sort of things that makes me feel weird:

1.Well,I prefer to be lonely but~ when I'm in the situation,I can't stand it.. Do u get what I mean? Well,what I mean is.. I'm a quiet type of person and seldom or don't have something to share with anybody;because of antah ahh.. Aku pun nda tau.. Then I decided to search for some place that is isolated.. But~ when I'm alone,mcm kna asingkan dri urang ada jua rasany.. Mcm nda urg mau bekwn sma aku.. Ntah ah.. Aku pun nda paham dri ku ane..

2.I do have wishlist which I always believe that I can achieve those wishes but whenever there's a something that hinder me to achieve the wishes I'm easily giving up.. Ironically,I do nothing to keep me in track again..

3.I'm used to smile eventhough that I'm sad or stress out.. Because I don't want my friends,my cousins n whoever that I'm close with to know that I'm sad n stress and worry bout me.. The problem is that keeping these feelings can make me down.. Should I continue to do the same thing?"

Ok mates,it's quite a long post which I've never did before.. But there's more to share regarding this post,nnt2 th ku ceta lg ah.. I'm glad that I can share with all of you in my page.. Because I'm pretty sad n depressed that I can't share these things through my own mouth,ganjil rasa ku.. Sayangny anugerah tuhan ane nda kna guna sebaikny.. =')

P.S: sory f there are somethng that u didn't understand.. Maklumlah english is not my mother language.. Hehe.. And~ do leave some cmmnts in the cbox,aight? *sniff2

ManU-Owen

Yeap.. Its true that ManU has signed Owen.. Waah~ Rooney n Owen,dua striker hebat.. Phew~ gd job Sir..

Btw skulah na g lma buka ne.. Yes! Ilang jua buring ne.. Ada jua kn dbuat.. & & & hwk ku blum siap mates.. Pls help me.. Huhu

LAPTOP ku rusak

T__T


Laptop ku rusak ahh.. SHIT EHH!! It cost me a lot to fix the laptop.. Chana ne guys? Fuck myself,kcuaian sndri.. Darn it!

HappY B'day to Eboy

2 Weeks Left

YEAYY!!I'll be turning 18 in 2 weeks time..Thanks to god for blessing my life till today..

Freaky thursday...

today 23rd April 2009, so around 8.40am to 9.45am,i was having a physics class. So my tutor gave us (me and the whole block-mates) some past year paper questions. We were told to do it by ourselves. So in the end, i couldn't get the answer and that really frustrated me x___x" it was very easy to get the answer but maybe my mind was 'blocked' at that time.. however i did get the formula correctly only that the concept is not easily understood x____x" what am i suppose to do?? AS June exam is coming closer by the second,around less than 3 weeks -___-"

so everyone....DO WISH ME LUCK T____T

Such A Tiring Day

Yesterday was such a tiring day.I woke up late at 11am then do some houseworks..OMG,In the afternoon my cousins and I had a football friendly match. We managed to win the match by 6-5.I call our football team as Bizz United.The idea came from the acronyms of my village,BU(Bukit Udal).Cool,isn't it?? hehe..

Then it comes to today's works.first thing in the morning,many heavy things to carry because of students awards..HuHu~ but I'm quite happy because our performance was quite successful andddd fun..Good Job mpp's *thumbs up* hehe




P-Jul^ 116

WHY??

okay,here is the deal~ yesterday me and my friends were having such a boring day and here she is talking talking about logical and unlogical thinking which drives me crazy!! why?? well she did mention..."the higher you learn the crazier you get"

and then she gave me such a hard questions to answer and it drives me nuts until i couldn't concentrate on my maths! so kept on pestering her with the question...WHY WHY WHY????

so we were talking about math in everyday life...how does it apply to our daily life?? and then i told her i watched a series in AXN,Numbers (kind of a math solving crime thingy).. and then here she is the question....HOW CAN THAT BE TRUE?? can human behaviour can be determine by number/math?? how can we know the future with number? how we know the criminals and his location by using just number?? and yes,she made me crazyy for the whole day